NY Rising Re-Capture Program!!..Is THIS for REAL??!!

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DISABLED due to the Storm & NOW THIS!!!……. I am JUST about to start my “FIGHT” as I didn’t realize everything would escalate so quickly to now Attorney letters and threats. My life is STILL deemed a disaster because every day is a reminder of Hurricane  Sandy because I FELL THROUGH my rotted floor, into the 3 ft crawl space, severely damaging my hip, back and YES, my head. I live in pain 24/7, walk with assistance from multiple devices and have suffered seizures due to my head. I am now on Disability, after once being a quite successful businesswoman( & single Mom for 25 years of 4 children, with no support!!) in Financial Sales. My mostly ranch-style home (I have 2 small bedrooms upstairs, with doggie-dormer windows & slanted ceilings, where the original cape-style “Summer” home, built in 1944 in Suffolk County-South Shore, was & is also where 6 people lived for a year following the storm while repairs were done downstairs, including myself, my live-in boyfriend, my incredible now 11yo nephew I have had custody of since his birth, and then my now 32-year-old son, who moved back home from California, with his family,-his GF & her daughter he is helping to raise-, to help his Mother, out of pure love) also had 3-4 Ft of water with Homeowners Ins & Flood Ins. My issue lies with the foundation, the entire under-belly & supports for the house. Neither Ins covered it. This was found out after multiple people & then an engineer from the Ins Co. came out, and I too after giving ALL amounts of monies upfront, that I was receiving, to NY Rising, was given a $ amount and then check for $51K for the “Repairs”/ items (the foundation and other various repairs-ALL DOCUMENTED) NOT listed on the Ins Companies line-by-line accounting. My sister is on my Mortgage due to when the Recession hit, and I had to refinance because I had then taken a Massive hit to my Salary & now she TOO is freaking out on me. Let me also mention that I also moved my father into my wrecked home with no sheetrock on the walls & plywood floors, to become his caregiver, within the 1st year after the storm, right before I succumbed to my injury after he was given 3 WEEKS to LIVE due to Cancer. God, the amazing Dr, all of us in the house, & his incredible WILL to LIVE helped him to live and give us another 3 years with him. As you can see I have & am STILL living through all this, now diagnosed with PTSD, and this CRAP is TRULY ruining my Life!! I am going to have to pull all the strength I have now to FIGHT these BASTARDS that have been threatening me with “Re-Capture” of ALL the MONIES. I am a very intelligent woman and I KNOW I know HOW to DO this, but I NEED HELP. If any of you are going through this as I know a lot of you are, then E-Mail me at “Geminifni@gmail.com” and we will FIGHT the GOOD FIGHT together because this is pure insanity…and also what is going to happen to those affected by “Harvey” & “Irma” if we can get the word out now, as it is happening to us & once “Katrina” victims. I want to hear from people ALL the way up to President Trump, Ben Carson & others to find out if they know what is going on. I can DO that!!..Let’s START a REAL CAMPAIGN towards the SCAM that NY RISING really IS. Where are the Re-Capture monies going?? How much was paid out, and how much is being tried to be recovered?? ALL questions I want to be answered before they TAKE BACK monies promised me due to “small print” that wasn’t IN the 1st drafts of the program. Plus, what about the $250,000 to raise the house that I didn’t utilize due to not having the fortitude to move out and do everything needed to complete such a massive project. President Trump, you WILL be hearing from me….. Thank you for your attention to this….With LOVE, Gina in Babylon – GEMINIFNI@GMAIL.COM

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My Purpose – My Introduction…..

I wrote this 2 & 1/2 years ago and Wow, I can continue this “List” ten-fold. A lot has happened since “My Intro” and I would LOVE to tell you all about what has happened since because it’s Life Experiences I NEVER thought I would have dealt with…….It’s funny when you look back at what you were thinking even just 2 years ago. So, it’s been a while. Hopefully I can squeeze some thoughts into this Blog more often because I do still need to Heal Me and writing does that….

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As I edged 50, it was my intention to start a Blog….. A Blog??!!! But I had never done so, where do I begin. It was my Kids, now adults intention to get me off of FB. They said I was too personal there. I couldn’t care whatsoever, but “they” did, so it got me to thinking, why don’t I try my hand at Blogging. Everyone was doing it, right?

As I said 50 was upon me, and I had the idea to do a daily log, a journal of my Life at 50. Well, my birthday was May 31st, and it now being November 14th, I am getting off to a late start, but as we travel this journey together, you will see why everything gets put off in my life. My Life hasn’t been dull as of late, or for that fact, my whole life, but for now…

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Angry With God……..

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I have been ANGRY at God, lately….I have been PRAYING to God these past few days regarding my Pain, due to the change in it being so INTENSE again, leaving me Bed-Ridden. I have been selfishly asking Everyone, I know “UP THERE” for help, .. I’ve been yelling for My Dad, My Grandmother, Janet, Jane, My Step-Father to “Put in a Good Word” for me, because he MUST be overlooking me. Why is He doing this to me? I have “Paid my Dues”… I thought I had “Earned MY Wings” already. I have done many Selfless Acts, especially as of late. This is supposed to be MY TIME and that doesn’t mean laying around in a bed, not being able to walk to the Frig!!

I got my answer……. It was in the Form of an E-mail. A DEAR FRIEND that I had NOT HEARD FROM in a LONG time, wrote to me Last Night. I asked her those Exact Questions…& this is what she said. I hope some of you get some Hope from these words, as did I………

“I do want you to know though, that God isn’t punishing you nor is He asking you to pay back some Karma. Being human has brought on your condition…. That is to say, things in your body have gone haywire and it needs fixing. God knows that and is the provider of great strength and patience. He walks beside you, my dear, and holds your hand. But He didn’t create the problem nor will He fix it. To do so, would tear apart the true-ism that we are, on this plane of existence, to learn and experience. And the only way we grow, is to have pain and adversity. We know people who have not lived through great trauma…. They suck because hey have no depth of character and can’t relate to our thinking or philosophy. Frankly most of them should be slapped!!! They have no introspection and it shows!

We are fighters. We are independent. And right now your body is out of sync but your heart beats like a lion- the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak!!

The spirit, is that strong force, that will guide you and will help you. The only way out of all this, is through it. So we take the journey. And we know we are not alone.”

I know she wouldn’t mind me sharing, but I will keep her anonymous, because that doesn’t matter… The WORDS do. So Thank you, my Dear and know that your words helped me immensely, at least for TODAY….Happy Sunday

To Those That Think People Who BITCH About Their Pain and Afflictions Are Annoying……….

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I got an UNKIND Post regarding me Posting on FB about my PAIN. He was “trying” to say STOP BITCHIN’ and think about what is good in your Life & find a Dr. to FIX you!! First of all, I am WORKING on that and have for over a Year now….. BUT I felt the need to explain WHY I write what I do at times……..You know what is so remarkable about WHY I post what I do, sometimes about the PAIN and how it is SO FRUSTRATING to NOT be a PERSON that can do what I use too because I don‘t have the strength, and when I Do OVER- DO it, after ACCOMPLISHING something like a “NORMAL” person, I find myself in BED for 2 DAYS…. It’s for a few reasons. 1- because I need my Kids, who are in their 20’s, to understand WHY I am lying in bed or limping around the house… 2- I need my Family to understand why i haven’t gotten a 9-5 “JOB” because when I wake up in the morning, I don’t even KNOW how my day is going to be. I have a “cocktail” of meds that I sit here and I BEG GOD to kick in, so I can have a good day, & 3- to my Friends who have basically given up on me because I can’t go out & PARTY on the Weekends and this has gone on for a YEAR now. and 4- because it TRULY helps ME to put it in words because if I hold them in I will explode… BUT like I said in the beginning, REMARKABLY I do it to REACH OUT to others that are feeling the “SILENT” afflictions. I feel like I am saying YOUR words, the ones that people that don’t “put it out there” for the public to see. I WANT to HELP!!! I want to show them that they are NOT alone & I will SCREAM the words if I have too. I am in schooling to become a LIFE COACH because of the passionate desire to HELP OTHERS achieve their GOALS, or MAKE PEACE with what ails them , physically, emotionally & mentally……… & Yes, I deleted the post on instinct, because I am Human . Maybe I should re-think that…. Maybe what I am doing isn’t WRONG, after I have had the time to think. I have had people say to me MANY times that i speak their words that they are afraid to say. Well right now I am hurt, but I am STRONG and will brush it away… but maybe this happened because I needed to reflect on it…. Always LOVE and a HUG to ALL that MATTER & NEED IT…….. ❤

My Purpose – My Introduction…..

As I edged 50, it was my intention to start a Blog….. A Blog??!!! But I had never done so, where do I begin. It was my Kids, now adults intention to get me off of FB. They said I was too personal there. I couldn’t care whatsoever, but “they” did, so it got me to thinking, why don’t I try my hand at Blogging. Everyone was doing it, right?

As I said 50 was upon me, and I had the idea to do a daily log, a journal of my Life at 50. Well, my birthday was May 31st, and it now being November 14th, I am getting off to a late start, but as we travel this journey together, you will see why everything gets put off in my life. My Life hasn’t been dull as of late, or for that fact, my whole life, but for now, my Introduction is to only say HI and see where it will go from here

50 has enriched me a LIFE that many can relate to, but many also ask, “Why are you not rockin’ back and forth in a Mental Institution?” It has given and taken from me. To put it in a list is overwhelming, but I will try. Life has given me the Gifts of 4 Children – 3 natural and 1 adopted, being a Single Parent, being a Successful Businesswoman that has gained and lost, a Caregiver, Death of a beloved parent – My Dad, a Matriarch to my younger siblings, many intimate Relationships, an Injury, the loss of my Home and belongings to a Hurricane, my Knowledge of the dreaded Disease of Cancer whereto I witnessed the Deaths of many Dear Friends to which I cared for and said the Final Farewell too at their hospital bedsides, Mental Illness in my Family, the Honor of working with amazing people in Charity Work, many different Jobs, a Bevy of Culture from growing up so near to NYC, The Mountains, The Ocean, Soulmates and ultimately, my Twin-Flame, Bob

As I sit here, with an injury that I sustained from Hurricane Sandy, in a home that is still not completed in repairs 2 years after the fact, I will utilize this Blog to help me heal, mentally and emotionally. I will do that with laughs, emotion and with probably many tears…. Help me to make that happen. Help me heal. Just listen to me as I embark on this adventure with you of how you can BE 50 and STILL COOL